| s-304
| Mr. Kurtz was... |
| s-305
| I felt weary and irritable. Hang Kurtz, I thought. |
| s-306
| I interrupted him by saying I had heard of Mr. Kurtz on the coast. |
| s-307
| 'Ah! So they talk of him down there, he murmured to himself. |
| s-308
| Then he began again, assuring me Mr. Kurtz was the best agent he had, an exceptional man, of the greatest importance to the Company; therefore I could understand his anxiety. |
| s-309
| He was, he said, 'very, very uneasy. ' |
| s-310
| Certainly he fidgeted on his chair a good deal, exclaimed, 'Ah, Mr. Kurtz!' broke the stick of sealing-wax and seemed dumbfounded by the accident. |
| s-311
| Next thing he wanted to know 'how long it would take to' ... |
| s-312
| I interrupted him again. |
| s-313
| Being hungry, you know, and kept on my feet too, I was getting savage. |
| s-314
| 'How could I tell, I said.' |
| s-315
| I hadn't even seen the wreck yet – some months, no doubt. |
| s-316
| All this talk seemed to me so futile. |
| s-317
| Some months, he said. |
| s-318
| 'Well, let us say three months before we can make a start. |
| s-319
| Yes. That ought to do the affair. |
| s-320
| I flung out of his hut (he lived all alone in a clay hut with a sort of veranda) muttering to myself my opinion of him. |
| s-321
| He was a chattering idiot. |
| s-322
| Afterwards I took it back when it was borne in upon me startlingly with what extreme nicety he had estimated the time requisite for the 'affair.' |
| s-323
| I went to work the next day, turning, so to speak, my back on that station. |
| s-324
| In that way only it seemed to me I could keep my hold on the redeeming facts of life. |
| s-325
| Still, one must look about sometimes; and then I saw this station, these men strolling aimlessly about in the sunshine of the yard. |
| s-326
| I asked myself sometimes what it all meant. |
| s-327
| They wandered here and there with their absurd long staves in their hands, like a lot of faithless pilgrims bewitched inside a rotten fence. |
| s-328
| The word 'ivory' rang in the air, was whispered, was sighed. |
| s-329
| You would think they were praying to it. |
| s-330
| A taint of imbecile rapacity blew through it all, like a whiff from some corpse. |
| s-331
| By Jove! I've never seen anything so unreal in my life. |
| s-332
| And outside, the silent wilderness surrounding this cleared speck on the earth struck me as something great and invincible, like evil or truth, waiting patiently for the passing away of this fantastic invasion. |
| s-333
| Oh, these months! |
| s-334
| Well, never mind. |
| s-335
| Various things happened. |
| s-336
| One evening a grass shed full of calico, cotton prints, beads, and I don't know what else, burst into a blaze so suddenly that you would have thought the earth had opened to let an avenging fire consume all that trash. |
| s-337
| I was smoking my pipe quietly by my dismantled steamer, and saw them all cutting capers in the light, with their arms lifted high, when the stout man with mustaches came tearing down to the river, a tin pail in his hand, assured me that everybody was 'behaving splendidly, splendidly,' dipped about a quart of water and tore back again. |
| s-338
| I noticed there was a hole in the bottom of his pail. |
| s-339
| I strolled up. |
| s-340
| There was no hurry. |
| s-341
| You see the thing had gone off like a box of matches. |
| s-342
| It had been hopeless from the very first. The flame had leaped high, driven everybody back, lighted up everything – and collapsed. |
| s-343
| The shed was already a heap of embers glowing fiercely. |
| s-344
| A nigger was being beaten near by. |
| s-345
| They said he had caused the fire in some way; be that as it may, he was screeching most horribly. |
| s-346
| I saw him, later on, for several days, sitting in a bit of shade looking very sick and trying to recover himself: |
| s-347
| afterwards he arose and went out – and the wilderness without a sound took him into its bosom again. |
| s-348
| As I approached the glow from the dark I found myself at the back of two men, talking. |
| s-349
| I heard the name of Kurtz pronounced, then the words, 'take advantage of this unfortunate accident.' |
| s-350
| One of the men was the manager. |
| s-351
| I wished him a good evening. |
| s-352
| Did you ever see anything like it – eh? |
| s-353
| it is incredible, he said, and walked off. |
| s-354
| The other man remained. |
| s-355
| He was a first-class agent, young, gentlemanly, a bit reserved, with a forked little beard and a hooked nose. |
| s-356
| He was stand-offish with the other agents, and they on their side said he was the manager's spy upon them. |
| s-357
| As to me, I had hardly ever spoken to him before. |
| s-358
| We got into talk, and by-and-by we strolled away from the hissing ruins. Then he asked me to his room, which was in the main building of the station. |
| s-359
| He struck a match, and I perceived that this young aristocrat had not only a silver-mounted dressing-case but also a whole candle all to himself. |
| s-360
| Just at that time the manager was the only man supposed to have any right to candles. |
| s-361
| Native mats covered the clay walls; a collection of spears, assegais, shields, knives was hung up in trophies. |
| s-362
| The business intrusted to this fellow was the making of bricks – so I had been informed; but there wasn't a fragment of a brick anywhere in the station, and he had been there more than a year – waiting. |
| s-363
| It seems he could not make bricks without something, I don't know what – straw maybe. |
| s-364
| Anyways, it could not be found there, and as it was not likely to be sent from Europe, it did not appear clear to me what he was waiting for. |
| s-365
| An act of special creation perhaps. |
| s-366
| However, they were all waiting – all the sixteen or twenty pilgrims of them – for something; and upon my word it did not seem an uncongenial occupation, from the way they took it, though the only thing that ever came to them was disease – as far as I could see. |
| s-367
| They beguiled the time by backbiting and intriguing against each other in a foolish kind of way. |
| s-368
| There was an air of plotting about that station, but nothing came of it, of course. |
| s-369
| It was as unreal as everything else – as the philanthropic pretense of the whole concern, as their talk, as their government, as their show of work. |
| s-370
| The only real feeling was a desire to get appointed to a trading-post where ivory was to be had, so that they could earn percentages. |
| s-371
| They intrigued and slandered and hated each other only on that account, – but as to effectually lifting a little finger – oh, no. By heavens! |
| s-372
| there is something after all in the world allowing one man to steal a horse while another must not look at a halter. |
| s-373
| Steal a horse straight out. Very well. He has done it. Perhaps he can ride. |
| s-374
| But there is a way of looking at a halter that would provoke the most charitable of saints into a kick. |